Wednesday, April 29, 2009
What Secrets Are You Hiding?
We all have secrets.
Anyone who says they don't is either lying to you or to themselves.
For me, I have more secrets than I care to admit.
I am an extremely private person. Probably seems ironic considering this is a personal blog and that I am very honest in what I write.
However, I do have some anonymity here. While some people I know do read this blog, I do my best to keep it from my family and friends who might sit in judgment or gossip in such a way that it would hurt my family.
Even so, I do not disclose my deepest secrets to you.
I have a wide range of secrets that include things that I have done for which I am ashamed or regretful and things that have happened that are painful or embarrassing.
Yet the things that I try to hold secret more than these are secrets of my thoughts and character.
We all think things we shouldn't. We all have moments that would expose chinks in the persona we present to the world.
The persona I do my best to present to the world is that of a strong, kind, compassionate, thoughtful and loving person.
I am those things most of the time.
There are some individuals that bring out the worst in me. Some that inspire thoughts so full of contempt and rage that I would be beyond mortified if others could read my mind.
Some things are intertwined. Some of my actions or experiences I keep secret because I do not want to expose those chinks. Those imperfections in who I am. Imperfections that would cause others to look at me differently.
I know there is no such thing as perfection, but I have always attempted to be as close to it as I can. In some ways, I'd rather keep up the facade than show my flaws.
What kind of secrets are you hiding?